Sunday, March 23, 2003

 
Been awhile hasn't it? This update brought to you by all the blog reading pissants you wouldn't leave me alone about not posting anything of substance in nearly a month. I'm going to revert back to my itemized update since I feel it is both easier to read and easier to write. If you have enough problems with this that you feel the need to complain, I suggest instead that you preform oral sex on a giant panda. Something, at least, should benefit from the wagging of your tongue.

-So as many of you already know, Vanessa and I are no longer seeing one another. Everyone who hears this immediatly asks, in typically Jr High fashion, "Who dumped who?". Fortunately, it went nothing like that. The breakup, to use Vanessa's word was amicable. We left as friends, her a bit sad, me a bit sad and more than a bit bitter, but I hid it well. I will not divulge the reasons for our breakup. If you do not know, then it is not for you to know. Suffice it to say, that for many reasons, it had to end, and it is far better that it ended when it should have than for it to be drawn out.

-Despite the friendly nature of the breakup, its had me a litte down this week. My first attempt to reconsile my emotions led me to drink far more alcohol than I am capable of holding, talking all night to one of my friends, sleeping, then spending the next morning with a wrath of god hangover. It didn't take me long to realize that the help and concern of friends was far more theraputic than the ritual (and literal as of the next morning) purging the alcohol provided. So, because of this, I have been battling my natural reclusive tendencies and spending as much time as possible with my friends, who, to their credit, have not tried to ditch me for all the whining, ranting, and self depriciating I've been doing. You know who you are, and you have my gratitude.

-Speaking of therapy, just before we broke up, Vanessa got me a TV tuner, which is, for those of you not computer inclined, a card that goes into you computer and lets you watch TV on it. Its so cool it makes me giddy. Since its aquisition, I have gotten ahold of a Dreamcast, and hooked that up to my computer as well. If it wasn't for my need to eat, I might never have to leave my computer again. In a way, this makes me very happy, and very, very, frightened. Coupling the natural desire (at least for me) to couple bitterness with reclusiveness and my penchant for video games cannot be healthy. So next time you're going out to do something fun and have room for one more, my dorm # is 495 2410. Odds are I'm not doing anything that can't be interrupted.

-I'm actually studying these days. I've decided to blame that on Vanessa, even though she no longer is my incentive to do so. Now, it seems, my reason for studying is to not make bad grades, thus allowing myself to continue to go to college at this fine university. Nonetheless, I am still a little freaked out when I go to study something before a test and realize I am not unrecoverably behind. Oh well, I guess its for the best.

-Last but not least, I am breathing large, long sighs of relief over my best friend Seth's last minute decision not to join the army. Its not that I don't think some exposure to discipline would help him, its more of a timing issue. At any rate, he claims to want to go back to college in one form or another, so more power to him.

Well everyone, thats it for this month. Its early afternoon so I'm not quite awake yet and definitely not inclined toward being clever, so I'll leave you with an obligitory goodbye and a verse from a song the radio, typically, is currently playing to death. Nonetheless, the words hit home.

There's another world inside of me that you may never see
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness there's a light that I can't find
Well maybe its too far away
Or maybe I'm just blind.
posted by David 1:13 PM